Grumpy Lulu

Am very grumpy lately.
Never thought I would ever feel a 'little' regret for continuing PhD study, but I'm feeling that way currently. Well, probably I'm just too stressed up with the situation that I'm in currently:

1. To come out with a manuscript by latest mid Sept. (which I'm still working hard in getting the data, BUT need to wait for the kit to come, AND to optimise the reaction, not to mention HAVE to solve this technical problems regarding the DNAse and no RT control)
2. To finish up using the research grant. (What? Is that a problem? You must be wondering how could this be stressful?)

Well, you see, I'm in my second year, but my project grant will finish this year. And looks like there's not gonna be any new grant to support our project at least for another year. We have just been given our 2009 allocation early this month (that is 8 months after 2009 starts) and we need to make sure we spend them before 31st, or else all the money will be taken back. Maybe I should feel grateful because initially we might not even get our allocation for the year. But can anybody please tell me, why do they have to make my life so difficult by limiting me to 'a month'? How am I suppose to buy things in a month's time, that can at least last me another 6 months to a year's time, when I'm still waiting for the outcomes of experiments that I'll be performing this coming few months to determine what I have to do next stage? And WHY is it NOW, when I have to worry about my stupid qPCR experiment and another microarray at hand???

Okay. Enough with the grumbling. Back to work.
天将降大任于斯人也，必先苦其心志，劳其筋骨，饿其体肤，空乏其身，行拂乱其所为，所以动心忍行，增益其所不能！PhD is all about DETERMINATION!!!!