Random thoughts

I'm taking a ten-day off the bench starting tomorrow. It's actually bad timing, and I feel guilty to do so especially when I'm rushing to finish my labwork. I actually bought the tickets earlier on this year, thinking that by Oct I should have finished labwork and start writing. Ended up that none of the things I planned work, even my Western blot give me nothing except the marker bands an hour ago. I cleaned up my workbench in the main lab and also cell culture lab, with the hope that next time when I clean it, it will be for once and for good.

So before such negative emotions sink me down further, perhaps it's good that I stay away from research for a couple of days, just to relax myself and to sweep away those frustrations. Hopefully when I return 2 weeks later, I'll be fully recharged to combat on.

Actually boss has told me to stop benchwork and start writing, but I feel that I have not enough data, and that it doesn't tell a good story. So I'm returning to bench for another month, just to give it one last shot. If it still doesn't work, then I'll just let it be.

Sometimes it's a lot easier to let go than to hang on, but by hanging on, you get to test your willpower, and that might make all the difference in life.