Phobia

I can feel my adrenalin level rising. I'm excited but more stressed at the time being. (Looks like my stomach gonna cry for revolution again- gastric. I expect that my level will drop back to normal the soonest next monday, when I get to see the result.) What if IT won't work? What if no result data that can be extracted? How should I face my boss? How??? After spending so much on it... I don't know why I'm so scared of it. Maybe because of my peers' previous experiences that have troubled me? Like a trauma... We are all phobia of IT!

But i should have confidence. Boss always says we must have confidence in doing things. As long as I do the experiments properly, things should be fine. Even if it's not, I have tried my best. That's the most that i can do, on my part. The rest is not within my control. Ok, i'll just do my best! Give my very best!

In times like this, I always turn to Him: Dear buddha, i pray to you for the wisdom to overcome my fear of failure, to feel confidence and peaceful in mind, so that I can concentrate on my work and not distracted by fear. I pray to you also for the wisdom to understand my work better, so that I'm able to plan and do my work properly, and achieve my objectives. May I be blessed with inner peace and happiness.

P/s: IT = microarray. I'm gonna do microarray work this week. Good luck to myself! p(^_^)q