demotivated

Although i'm a semester into my study, I cannot resist to doubt my own decision of continuing study here. Have I made a wrong choice?

So many problems that I need to worry of, that hinders me from concentrating on my research.

Tell me, how could I produce research of excellence when I need to bother about the slow process of purchasing research chemicals, items and consummables? Or I need to help sort the paperwork confusion of administrative matters? Or other little yet tedious things that take up my time and mind just to solve it?

And tell me, how do I concentrate on my study when financially I'm not secured (as they have promised us)?

When the culture or environment does not encourage (sometimes even discourage) research, how can they expect people to give world class performance?

I've been trying so hard to motivate myself, to tell myself that as long as I strive hard, the environment is not a problem. Yet again and again they fail me.